Denial.

Really, how can it be?

Take the leap, a quantum one at that?

What if a cliff awaits on the other side?

Catch me if I should fall, I'm as good as dead anyway,

At least on the inside.

The incubator which keeps me alive is the passion of Doing Good.

To make others Happy instead of focusing on the intrinsic.

For the poor & elderly, I forge ahead.

It keeps my mind off external factors.

God keeps showing me that it is You,

And repeatedly, I turn away because I find it impossible, given the circumstances from which we'd have to pluck ourselves.

It cannot be right.

It cannot be You.

It must not be You.